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Hi T -   

I guess, it's about time to move forward. I've been stuck for a great while. I've been happy. I will always appreciate your presence in my life. You are my constant listener. You are my clown. Thank you for the wonderful smiles. Sometimes, I wish I could tie you with my shoelaces. Just so, you never have to leave. But I am not selfish. You are like a rock - strong and dependable. You don't need the sun nor the moon to shine. 

You know, I've never been good in hints. I don't understand the stares nor the implied messages. I need security. I need assurance. But then again, perhaps, it all starts and ends with friendship. I have no complaint. You've been such a good friend.

I know, I shouldn't be surprise when I see you in the center stage again.  You belong there - where everyone can look up on you.

I need to stop now. This has always been my way of staying sane.    
I will miss your laughters.
I will always treasure the friendship.

And I promise you, when you need me, just look back, I'll be where you left me last.

I'll stop on missing you,
S -

** This is neither fact nor fiction. Let's go in between.

Get Spooky in the Photo Booth!

I am not the best person to talk about fashion. I neither know how to do my own make-up nor to pair my oh-so-dependable corporate top to a skirt. So, when our Talent Engagement decided to do a movie-inspired costume pre-Halloween Party, I hardly shown eagerness on searching for our team's costume. Three days before the party, our team still couldn't decide on what to wear. From High School Musical, Flinstones, Sex and the City, Sister Act to finally Percy Jackson and the Olympians: The Lightning Thief. A day before the event, Alvie and Cora scouted two yards of cloth for each of us in Megamall. And yes, we are going to don only this with the help of safety pins. Ohhnnnooo.

We left the office early because Alvie and I are part of the Logistics team which means that we have to take care of the equipments and the decorations. We arrived at the Discovery Suites and found the photo booth being set-up outside the function hall. We told them to move it inside so during the program, they could have their pictures taken without leaving the hall. After putting in the fake webs, we changed to our costumes. Since our Percy Jackson got sick on the day of the event, we just settled to being without our lead star.

When asked for our movie, we told them that we're from Percy Jackson, Clash of the Titans, Troy and even Encantadia (they actually appear in Mulawin, The Movie) for local branding. Take your pick!

Salamat, Orez!

Nakakainis. Mas pinapahalagahan talaga natin ang isang tao kapag wala na sila sa buhay natin. Bakit nga ba ganun?

Hindi naman kita crush. Close friend lang ang tingin ko sa’yo – kasabay umuwi, kakulitan, ka-groupmate. Hindi ko alam kung bakit isang araw, possessive na ako sa’yo. Nagulat ako nung Wednesday. Bakit parang naiinis ako na nagtatawanan kayo? Bakit naiirita ako na kinakausap mo siya pero ako hindi? Naguguluhan ako.

Confirmed. Hindi na tayo magkakasama ulit. Iba na schedule mo. Iba na schedule ko. Hindi ko naman ugaling mag-adjust para sa ibang tao – kahit pa para sa’yo.

Tahimik lang ako nung nagku-kwento ka nung nagla-lunch tayo. Wala naman ako masasabi. Baka mapansin mo lang na naiinis na ako kasi yung 50% na chance na makasama kita ulit ay leaning to negative.Wala, eh. Sasabihin ko sana sa’yo beforehand yung schedule ko, pero mukhang decided ka na. Tahimik na lang ako.

24.24F

Ngayon ka lang ulit nagawi dito. Ang lapit-lapit mo pero pakiramdam ko palagi, ang layo mo. Mula nung June hanggang ngayong October, isang beses pa lang kita nakausap. Naalala mo ba yun nung nag-Hello ka sa akin nung nasa may elevator tayo? Baka hindi mo na tanda yun.

Pagdating sa mga pangarap kong gawin sa buhay, hindi ako madaling mag-give up. Makulit kasi ako. Pakiramdam ko, lahat ng gusto ko pwede ko makuha, basta tamang effort lang.

Pero, ikaw, gusto pa din kita. Pero gusto na kita i-give up.

Naka-hide na pala ako. O mas tamang sabihin na filtered na pala ako sa Facebook updates mo. Oo. Minsan kasi tinitingnan ko yung profile mo. Kasi nga, hindi ka naman mahilig mag-status. Nakita ko, may game updates. Pero hindi lumabas sa news feed ko. Ang totoo, nalungkot ako.

Ngayon, wala na akong dahilan para i-private message ka. Wala na ako maisip kung paano ko pa ipapaalam sa’yo ang existence ko. Ang totoo, bigla ako napagod.

Gets ko naman kasi. Hindi naman talaga tayo close. Minsan, nakakainis din yung pagpi-feeling close ko.

Siguro, naiinis ka na din.
* kathang-isip. o bahala ka na isipin kung kathang-isip nga.

10.10.10

We joined the 10.10.10 Run for Pasig River. Apple, Silina and I registered on 3K only despite joining the 6K race on the Earth Run. It's Apple's first time, and Silina and I thought that we are not physically fit for the 5K. Our company paid for our registration fees and also of the 2000 others. They also provided us our company bib to identify us just in case we need medical assistance and an orange cap. =) 

26 before 26!

Tinatamad ako. Kaya naisipan ko na lang na mag-blog. Iniisip ko, ano ba gusto ko i-share ngayon? Hmm. Nung nag-blog hopping ako last week, nakita ko yung 25 before 25 project ni Apol. Naisip ko, ako din, gagawa ng list. Oo, medyo may pagka-inggitera kasi ako. Lol.

1. Get a tattoo. Uber low ng physical pain tolerance ko, pero gusto ko magpa-tattoo. Astig lang. Chos! Here’s the henna tattoo I got in the UP Fair last Feb 2009. =)

2. Conquer Sagada. For the nth time, gusto ko pumunta sa Sagada. Parang tingin ko, I’ll commune with nature in this place. Ang dilemma ko dati ay wala ako mayaya na mag-land travel with me for more than 10 freaking hours. Buti na lang, gusto din pala nina Apol. Niyayaya namin yung mga batch mates namin sa work. Sana matuloy, slated on December ito. =)

3. Watch a movie alone. I-le-level up ko na ang pagiging independent mode ko. Kung kaya kumain mag-isa sa mga resto, at kaya ko mag-mall mag-isa, bakit hindi ko makakaya na mag-movie mag-isa?