May Two Days Pa Ako!

May 31, 2010 Tsina 2 Comments

“Pagdating ng panahon, magugulat ka na lang sa katotohanang ang pinakamasaya mong sandali sa buhay ay yung mga panahon na hindi mo masyadong nagamit ang utak mo.”
Hindi ko alam kung forwarded text message lang ba ito ni Mon or original niya. Pero tinamaan ako ng bongga. Sapul na sapul.

Ilang araw ka na ba wala? Ilang araw ko na ba tinititigan ang pangalan mo sa Office Communicator (OC) ko? Deactivated na nga ang profile mo pero hoping pa rin yata ako na bigla ka na lang mag-ping. Ang tanga lang.
Nag-ping ang friend ko. May balita daw siya tungkol sa’yo. Tinanong ko pa rin kung ano yun kahit alam na alam ko naman ang sasabihin niya. At ayun nga, umalis ka na daw. Sinabi ko kay friend na alam ko. Hindi ko na binanggit na sinabi mo sa akin yun two weeks ago na. Sinabi lang niya na naalala niya ako. Sabi niya, dati raw kasi, namumula ako ng dahil sa’yo.  Bigla kita na-miss.

Two years ago, nag-blog na ako tungkol sa’yo. Crush kita noon. Impressed kasi ako sa accent mo. Kinikilig ako sa smile mo. Pero two years ago na yun.


Noong hindi pa uso ang OC, madalas kita ka-email. Pinag-uusapan natin kahit mga bagay na wala naman kabagay-bagay talaga. Kahit ano lang, basta may mapag-usapan.


Noong mauso ang OC, medyo hindi na kita crush noon. Tagal na kita hindi nakakausap. Hindi na tayo nakakapag-email, hindi rin naman tayo nagtsa-chat sa OC. Lagi ka kasi busy, nahihiya ako kulitin ka. At marami na din naman ako ibang pinagkakaabalahan na.


More than a month ago, nag-ping ka. Kwento mode ka yata noon. Bigla mo ako niyaya lumabas. Nagulat ako. Unexpected. Parang ayoko. Hindi ko kasi alam kung paano kikilos with you around. Late ako dumating. Nakwento kasi ako sa officemate ko. Siguro, nagpapalipas lang ako ng kaba ko noon. Nung makita kita, nawala lahat ng kaba ko. Nung nag-smile ka, alam ko na agad na mag-e-enjoy ako na kasama ka.


Masaya ako na kasama kita. Ang komportable lang ng feeling. Gusto ko yung feeling of comfort and security.  Gusto ko yung tawanan. Pakiramdam ko, special ako. Yung level na parang ako lang ang babae sa mundo. Sinulat ko pa nga sa planner ko na “Thanks for all the blessings, Lord!” Ganun ako kasaya nun. Blessing ang tingin ko sa’yo.


Pagkatapos.. Natapos na ang kwento. Nalungkot ako. Naguluhan. Lahat na yata ng negative thoughts pumasok na sa isip ko. Pinagsabihan na ako ng friends ko na huwag ako masyado assuming. At dapat daw next time, alam ko na gagawin.


Parang binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig. Oo nga, assuming nga kasi ako masyado.
Nag-ping ka na naman. Nangamusta ka lang. Sinabi mo din na nag-resign ka na. Shocked ako. Nalungkot. Everyone’s leaving. Pati ikaw.

Nadagdagan na naman ang laman ng memory bank ko. Naging masaya na naman ako for a while. Naguluhan na naman ako sa sitwasyon. At napatunayan ko na hindi na naman ako natuto.


Ambilis ng two weeks. Last day mo na. Hinintay ko na magpaalam ka sa akin. Feeling naman kasi ako masyado. Pero pauwi na ako, hindi ka pa nagpi-ping. Naka-quota yata ako ng pride sa’yo. Nag-ping ako. Sabi ko, ma-miss kita. Sabi mo, ma-miss mo din ako. Hindi ko na pinatulan yung mga sinabi mo. Nauna na ako umuwi ng araw na iyon.


Nung unang araw na wala ka, tinitigan ko yung pangalan mo sa OC, binasa ko yung mga conversations natin, hinanap ko yung mga lumang email exchanges natin. Nag-focus lang ako sa lahat ng positive sides ng friendship natin.


Five days ka ng wala. Nalulungkot pa din ako. Naiinis pa din ako. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil natuto ako mag-expect at mag-assume. Madami ako gusto itanong.  Gusto ko marinig sa bibig mo na wala naman tayong something. Oo, slow ako. Dapat nga obvious na, kasi five days na, hindi ka man lang nagte-text.


Sabi ko sa sarili ko, sige lang, maglungkut-lungkutan ka for one week. Feel the pain. Pero kailangan na matuto na ako this time.  Sabi nga ni LeAnn Rimes, “Shame on you if you fool me once, shame on me if you fool me twice.” Naka-dalawa ka. Bingo na ako pag tumatlo ka pa.


May two days pa ako para mag-emote.

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Thursdays

May 24, 2010 Tsina 0 Comments

Here you go again, breaking it..

I wish you'd stop the habit. :(

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I am Counted!

May 10, 2010 Tsina 0 Comments

This is my second presidential election. In 2004, I rooted for Raul Roco to win. But GMA got the most numbers. Now, in the first automated election in the country, I'm a little apprehensive on the turn out. Election started at seven this morning, but instead of casting my vote then, I've decided to do it in the afternoon. Early today, my father said that there are many people in our precincts. I have been monitoring this election since  this morning in GMA News, Facebook and Twitter. And realized that casting of vote is averaging from two to four hours. 

How am I going to vote? Would I be able to stand the heat and the long line?

At exactly 3:04pm, we are entering the premises of the school. We brought with us the small paper from PPCRV bearing my precinct number and cluster number. To my surprise, gone is the long line and we went directly to the BEI. After signing and marking the election list, we were given the ballot to be used. The ballot is long. I think the secrecy folder is a little useless because it is harder to shade on the ballot using it. Oh well, it is just me. :)

I am a little careful in shading the ballot since I heard from the news that it might not be read by the PCOS machine if I shade too hard. After few minutes, I put in my ballot to the PCOS machine and waited to see the Congratulations message. And I did see it, the PCOS machine accepted my ballot on the first try. Someone (the BEI, I guess!) put the indelible ink after. At 3:15pm, I've voted. :)
 And this is the one with my brother. 
And now, what will happen next?

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No, I'm Not for Yellow!

May 10, 2010 Tsina 2 Comments

I watched Biyaheng Totoo in GMA7. The feature of Kara David in Zamboanga broke my heart. I couldn't believe that there are people who get as little as six pesos per day. When asked what he wanted to tell the next president, his response was "Wala kami hihilingin. Nahihiya kami sa gobyerno." 


In few hours, the country would decide the best man for the highest position in the land. I don't know if the surveys are right that the Yellow would beat all the others. But I'm still rooting for the Red. Competence is the word. 

Months back, when Cory was laid to rest, and while reading Conrado de Quiros' column in PDI, I remember saying to myself that I hope Noynoy would run for the presidency. Surely, I'd vote for him. Few weeks after, he did. But no, I'm sorry, he's not getting my vote this time. 

I'm too sentimental and emotional for my own good that I'm willing to entrust my future, and the future of the rest of the Filipino people, to the candidate who has no bill on his name on his 12 years in the Senate and Congress combined. Yes, he is not corrupt as most people claimed. But have you heard the SCTEx issue? Do you remember the Hacienda Luisita massacre? I am no expert in social issues but I think that GMANews.TV could explain them better.

This country doesn't need a saviour. This country needs a competent leader. 

Go out and vote!

* Image grabbed from GMANews.TV. Thanks!

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Caliraya, Baby!

May 09, 2010 Tsina 4 Comments

I didn't expect we'd be able to push through our Caliraya summer outing in our project. Since February, we'd been working our butt off to settle things. However, due to miscommunications, company policy issue, fully booked reservations and other things, we almost changed our plans. Just when we were settling to Grande Island in Subic, I've been told by the Events department of the company that we could revert back to the original plan - a Caliraya Recreation Center summer outing. 

Everyone had been adamant that this year, we'd have fun under the sun in Laguna. I didn't know why, I've never been there, and honestly, I wasn't that thrilled then. Since I volunteered to be part of the Logistics team, we spearheaded the request for the venue, the transportation to be used, and so on and so forth. During that time, the to-do list seemed endless.

But after all the revisions of request, the lunch meetings, the follow-up calls, the re-approvals, the changing of date, finally, we were on Caliraya on May 1 and 2, 2010.

The trip was unexpectedly long. The traffic that day was heavy. Everyone was getting hungry then. We were a little worried about our lunch since the management was said to be strict on meal times. Breakfast should be at 7am to 7:45am, lunch at 12nn to 12:45pm and dinner at 6pm to 6:45pm. We arrived past 12nn and has pre-arranged our lunch. The good thing was we have an advance party that advise the Caliraya management of our late arrival. Food was good, by the way.

The check-in time is at 2pm. After we are settled in our quintuple sharing rooms, we headed out and worn our summer outing shirts plus our colored bandanas. Sporting a rubber shoes, I have been advised to change to slippers if I don't want my white rubber shoes to be covered with mud. Hello, MudSlide. So I do as told.

During the assembly, we prepared a short cheer for our team. And our name? Redjemon! OMG. The Red Team, or the Redjemons, are composed of Rey, Maru, Joan, Alan, Vincent, Leo, Elvin and myself. We were two members short that was why winning the game was far from my mind.

The Programs committee prepared an Amazing Race type of game. We needed to hurdle the ten stations. The team with the highest point wins. Our team had no strategy other than to finish all the stations near the starting point. And we did, we started with the Earth Ball. 
Followed by the obstacle course and the Monster Ball. The scorching heat  was unbearable. I thought then that I am due to collapse anytime. Thank God, I didn't. Then we went to the swimming pool area for the Splash Island station. Since no one was playing in the Shooting Stars station, we headed there next. We went to the Stairway to Heaven station for an exhausting game. After that, we reached the Slide Pinoy.
After the team had taken the ride, we headed to the Kayak station where I volunteered to be one of the four members to play. I'm glad I did because it was fun but physically challenging.

We were discussing whether we'd do the MudSlide first or the Hanging Bridge station. We opted for the Hanging Bridge. 
With few minutes left to spare for the game, we hurried to reach the MudSlide station next. Sadly, when we got there, the marshalls already left. Game was supposed to be over. But just for the sake of fun, we still tried the MudSlide and throughly enjoyed it!

During the presentation night, we had song and dance numbers to fill in the night. Most importanly we played Cranium wherein Team 1 won. Hey, I belonged to Team 1. Yeah. Thanks to all the jologs in the team that we were able to answer some of the Name that Movie Title questions. And yes, we were too pressured to the backward spelling that we almost lost the game. 

On the following day, morning was intended for additonal free time for everyone, after playing Earth Ball with my project team, we roamed around the recreation center. Awarding ceremony had been set in the afternoon. And heavens, we won the Amazing Race game. We placed second after the E-team, the Black Team. Super happy with the unexpected results.

By the way, my Caliraya adventure was absolutely free. Thanks to our team building budget. :)

**Thanks Carla and Anna for the pictures!

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Count me in!

May 08, 2010 Tsina 0 Comments


It's almost election day. Who are you going to vote for? Check out my list below:

President: 
5 Gordon, Richard

Vice President:
1 Binay, Jejomar

Senators:
1 Acosta, Neric
13 Defensor Santiago, Miriam
15 Enrile, Juan Ponce
17 Estrada, Jinggoy
19 Guingona, TG
32 Marcos, Ferdinand
33 Maza, Liza
37 Ocampo, Satur
38 Ople, Toots
40 Osmena, Serge
51 Roco, Sonia
53 Sotto, Tito

Partylist:
152 Kabataan
Please vote. I don't care if you'd go along my list or not, but please exercise your right to vote. Be counted.

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Superhero much? I am not.

May 08, 2010 Tsina 0 Comments

So please stop putting the blame on me. Please stop making me feel that my efforts are not good enough. And that I am not good enough. I feel tired. I feel sad. I feel incompetent. Please do something.

Save whatever that is left of us.

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